A few firsts

Chris and I seemed to have an almost perfect relationship. I started getting homeschooled so I never had to worry about school getting in the way.

We got drunk a least once a week, we smoked marijuana everyday. I tried shrooms with him for my first time. It was absolutely horrible. I tripped for approximately 7 straight hours! I saw my whole life in such depth. Like, why was my dad so strict about things, how bad of a childhood he had. How he must hurt. I analyzed my brothers relationships and my sister's. (Did I mention I have 2 older brothers and older sister and one younger brother.) I cried and then Chris would be looking at me, asking I was ok? Then I would start laughing at him, then he would laugh with me and then I'd start crying all over again. I feel bad for putting HIM through that LOL. I also snorted Adderall (prescription pill for ADHD) for the first time. I had to go to work right after, and I talked my manager's ear off. I remember her looking at me, while I was sweeping the floor and she says "Alice, I don't think I've ever seen you work so hard"

Chris and I were together almost everyday, but the parties slowed down drastically after Bob died. It was usually just Chris, Mandy and I together. I started working full time, and that left Chris more time to himself. After were dating for about 6 months, we decided to try to get pregnant. I went off my birth control for 3 months, I decided it was not a smart idea and started taking it again. Our relationship started to get bad after that. It was almost as if, he didn't think I loved him or our future together. He got a job, and one night I decided to go out with Mandy and my BFF Lisa, Chris was working 3rd shift and I went to visit him at work like I frequently did, and he was irrate that I was actually hanging out with my friends without him. He worked at a grocery story cleaning the floors. He took his broom and was slamming it against the outside wall till pieces of it were flying off. He grabbed me around the neck and said he was done with my slutty ass. I was determined to break up with him then, but it actually made me attach myself MORE to him.