Age 16

Ok... So I turn 16 and I start dating Matt. Matt is sweetheart and likes to listen to ICP. We also work together. I got high with him for the very first time. We were sitting in his car, and we just keep smoking, bowl after bowl.  After that everyday we smoke weed together. I pick him up in morning before school and we smoke on the way to school (he had his drivers license suspended) It was always such a blast with his best friend and his girlfriend with us all the time. Sit around and just laugh...

After dating Matt for 4 months he proposes to me. Got me a ring and everything, stupid me I say yes. Then this guy at work starts hitting on me. Damn, I've had a crush on this guy forever. He starts grabbing and slapping my ass when he can. And rubbing himself up against me, and I was rubbing right back.

So I come clean (sorta) and tell Matt over the phone. "I'm sorry I just can't be with you right now. I'm not ready for a steady relationship" He started screaming "Who the fuck do you think you are? I LOVED you, I would have given you anything! FUCK THIS, You want me to kill myself, oooohhh here's a nice SHARP knife." Then I hear him like he's trying to not breathe. And then he lets out a breath of air, and says all calmly "You know I love you Alice" Click, he hung up on me. I call back one, two, three rings.. his moms answers. Before I can say anything she says to me "What the fuck did you do to him, Matt you're bleeding everywhere. STOP! Alice, I have to call 911. Click she hung up on me. I call back it took forever for her to answer, she finally did and told me the ambulance was on it's way. If I wanted I could go to the ER. Of course I did, I woke my Mom up and begged her to take me. I waited in the waiting room, it seemed like forever...finally they let me see him. I walk in and he's sitting on the hospital bed all bandaged up and handcuffed. I walk in and I told him I was sorry, that I didn't mean it. They took him to the mental institution. But they let him out the next day.

Well now, I very well couldn't break up with him. He'd kill himself. So I cheated on him with that guy, oh and then there was another. And then one night me and Laura got drunk and then I drove and got her brother Tom and finally had sex with him. This whole time me and Gary were still talking on the phone, finally I met the 19 year old hottie and gave him head. I kept begging him to have sex with me and he said he wouldn't cause I was a minor. Laura then talks to her friend about him, here that friend knows him and he's really 26! I was super pissed and confronted him about it but he kinda blew it off like who the hell cares? So I dropped it.. A few drunken months later though he calls me at 2 am and says he wants to fuck me. He said he was coming to my house to get me. I was thrilled and nervous oh man, I snuck outta the house. We then had sex and he brought me home.

Soon after that, Chris came back into my life...